why?
is it just me or is history
bound to repeat it self
i swore to love my self
be selfish for my self
think only of my self

why
did i put my self in this place
im hanging upside down
promised not to be let down
climb up when i fall down
push up when being pushed down

Is this really how i love?
do I really think of others first
rather than be selfish and hurt everyone else

I know i've been at that sinking ship before
I know how it felt when your trying to rescue somebody
and give them your own life vest just to see that he/she
is giving it to someone else....

Someone asked me if I am happy
I don't know what to say coz im all empty
she asked me again "what is your dream?"
I answered "to be finally be happy!"

she told me to find happiness in what ever God gives me
and be thankful for all the blessings that we're receiving
but what i really learned from her is to put my self first rather than prioritizing others
for weeks I've been happy
for days I've been changed
It doesnt hurt no more
her face doesnt stop my breath no more
im finally truly happy
im finally truly free

but now what's happening
it's like dejavu and it's like my head was beeing drilled
now when im finally happy
now that im finally saved
is when you came and put me back inside that sinking ship
that same ship
the same infested water

i know that your not ready
and im not giving you a hurry
but now i wanted to be sure
will you jump with me?
are you willing to fall with me?
coz i dont want the same tragedy
to happen again with me
same dreadful ship
same painful chills of the icy cold waters
there is only one thing before i jump in
are you really sure it's me you wanna save?!